hi tumblr friends. its been a while since ive been over here… and honestly i miss it… so im back. plus, i have a whole lot to say considering i haven’t spoken in 11 days. eleven. im losing my mind!! i feel all alone in the small little universe in my brain. i even painted my fingernails orange… and i hate orange. ahh! i feel like a runner without feet or a writer who can’t read… but you know what? it’s totally ok because in the next 2 weeks… i will speak again… and when i do i’ll be nodule free. i’ll have vocal chords like you! it won’t take so much effort + air to say anything… and sing!! i accidentally laughed out loud the other day + it scared me because i haven’t laughed out loud for years! i was always the silent convulsing knee slapper because the nodule made my voice really airy + hoarse. so nothing would come out when i laughed. and now? i can’t stop LOLing! i’m even giggling. whoa. im so excited to use these babies. can you imagine how frustrating it is not only to be silent, but to be so anxious to hear what i sound like and be silent still! ahhh! im losing it. ive read 1 book out of my 14 hahaha! + i have a sweet tan + i have a really clean house + i’ve listened to every beatles song ever recorded… i’ve got until friday left… hopefully. my voice doc, like the groundhog on february 2nd, is going to tell me if i can speak or if i have to do 1 more week of silence… eee! we’ll see. ive been a very good patient… so i have hopes that im healed… but only he’ll know… friday… so back to movies + books + silent fantasies for me…thanks for all your prayers, kind words, support + love during the craziest time of my life.
i couldn’ t love you each more.