work? yes please! i can’t believe i’ve been out of work for almost 3 weeks. i can’t believe i couldn’t wait to do nothing, when nothing is so much less amazing than something! i can’t believe at 25 i still believe the grass will be greener over there. then i get there and i start looking back at the grass i had. im a little fantasy addict. i love to imagine all day. i imagine what that would look like, what he would be like. what doing that would be like, what that might feel like.. then i make a little movie in my head where it all starts happening my way… and then i just start manifesting into reality! ( i think ) i mean, i believe in the power of thinking… so… what are your thoughts like? do you notice that sometimes your thoughts come true? holy canoli, i do! my song “daydream” is a musical example of in my head vs. real life. i can’t seem to marry the two. i can’t seem to think something + then think the same thing when its standing in front of me. am i crazy? i don’ think im alone. i think some of us are just “longers” we long for more, something different, something new, something shiney, something that will think will make it all ok. we’re just trying to be ok, at the end of the day, anyway. (that rhymed) ok… enough outta me, i’m gonna go back to day dreaming about 3 weeks from now when im back to work + laborful + loving it. cause i do. + i love you too
…i sang coming out of the womb. i sang at my first holy communion in front of 300 people in a church when i was seven. i sang every single christmas carol ever. for everyone. my whole life. i sang karaoke + i sang at parties. around twelve years old i got into theater programs and sang in all of them. i started in the chorus + sang in choirs + groups for years + years. around my sophomore year of high school i started to get more confidence and better roles in the school plays….
….then i started playing guitar and piano and singing my own songs about love + life. i never stopped. i never gave up. not everyone liked my voice + my songs my whole life… + they still dont…i still don’t give up. i still don’t stop….
…three years ago today i moved to los angeles…
…i moved here with one suitcase, one guitar, and one big fat scary dream. i was sooo homesick. i cried every night…. but i kept singing… and writing… and waitressing and working hard…
you inspire me more than words can express. jar of hearts gets me thru my sleepless nights. in may, i just got out of a 3 year relationship and didn't think i'd survive it. everyday is a battle but it's getting a little easier everyday. thank you from the bottom of my heart for saving my life everyday and i cannot wait to see the upcoming months and how HIGH you will soar. you go girl<3
my question is.. would you ever go on the Ellen show?
ahhh thank you “losttheloveilovedthemost” !!!! you’re awesome. i’m so glad “JOH” has helped you. you inspire me too…. and ellen? yes please ;)
I had my heart broken like I truly never imagined was possible. I cannot tell you how much this song really resonated with me from the very moment you started sharing it with the world. Thank you and I am absolutely a fan! Thank you for sharing and thank you for being you. ~ Serenity
omg i cant believe you have a tumblr :D. i love jar of hearts well as you can see my name lol. of course i heard it on sytycd and when i heard it, i couldnt get it out of my head it is my absolute favorite song. you are so pretty and thanks for being a fantastic musician :)
thank you for loving “jar of hearts” it loves you back. x
You are so great! I am so happy that you have come SO far...and you still have so much ahead of you! :D I have been a fan of you since your "YouTube Days" and I will forever be a fan! May God bless you in all that you do!
P.S. - Your boots are so cool!!! Its like a 'you' thing! Love it!
P.S.S.- Can't wait to hear more from you! :)
thank you so much!!! :) ps. combat boots are the new black!
friends! holy canoli! can you believe all this???? i still can not. i am still waking up questioning the difference between my sleep + dream + fantasy + reality. some of the past 43 days couldnt have reaaaaaaallly happened. there is just no way. although… i seem to remember pieces…
thank you so much.
thank you for loving + buying + facebooking + tweeting + writing me.
i am speechless.
inspired is how you make me feel.
grateful is how i want to stay.
the past twenty five days DID happen.
they happened to me + to you.
they made almost every dream i’ve ever had come true.
love. heart-touching. love. believers. love. new employers. love. record deal. love. jason mraz asking me to sing “lucky” with him on the tour he asked me to join. love. genuine happiness + buttons popped. love. fans. love. a purpose. love.
i asked my manager what i should do now, + he said. “dream bigger”
so thats what i’m gonna do.
im gonna work harder.
im gonna put out music faster.
im gonna write whats inside of my heart heartier.
im gonna love the shit out of you— back.
everyone keeps asking why i think this all happened + what i would say to the person still trying…i believe all these things happened because i never gave up. because i did everything i DID NOT want to do. because i worked so hard it hurt. and because i trusted my path, good or bad, i let go.
now excuse me while i go do what it is i’m on this planet to do….
friends. old friends. new friends. its been twelve days since “jar of hearts” happened to the world. its been the best twelve days of my life for so many reasons. not just because all my dreams are coming true. not just because my career took off. not just because i quit my cafe job. not just because i flew to new york city and played the cbs morning show. not just because people believe in me. not just because it’s all happening. i’ve had the best twelve days of my life because i feel right. i feel loved + am loving the world back. im listening and responding. i’m happy to have created but want to create more. im humbled and honored and touched and lucky and loving. there has been zero negativity in twelve days. i wonder what the world would be like if everyone felt loved. im going to continue loving you back. im going to keep going into bathrooms and pinching myself and getting grateful. i’m going to keep working really hard for you and for me. i think the moment i start doing everything for only me, will be the moment it goes bad. i love your words and emails and texts and calls and thoughts and wishes and dreams. i love hearing all about you and your experiences. i so genuinely love you. thank you for loving me too.
i am so touched + speechless over your overwhelming response to jar of hearts. i wrote the song after i went home to philadelphia for the holiday last december. i sat in my childhood bedroom and hid from the boy (with the jar of hearts) who wanted to see me. my heart wanted to see him, my head knew better. i couldnt take one more break so i wrote the song instead. i had no idea that six months later you’d all be playing the song, singing the song, dancing to the song, learning the song and loving it so much. im humbled + grateful + so excited to release more. and more. and more.
all my love,
i dont read or write sheet music but i do know the piano chords:
verse: Cm Eb Bb Fm (Ab 2nd time)
prechorus: Fm Ab Eb Bb Fm Ab Bbsus
chorus: Eb Bb Cm Ab (Abm) end with: Eb
bridge: Cm (right hand) Walk down C, B, Bb, A (bass note) Ab G
Totally, positively in love with your song and you! Love at first listen! Just now on SYTYCD!!! Beautiful! That song could be a theme song for a long drawn out terrible affair from my too recent past. New Fan for sure!
just came across your music, your blog, and you via SYTYCD. i’m super thrilled to have done so. i only hope the whole of the show’s demographic (who was previously ignorant of you) appreciated the introduction as much as i did.
I loved your voice ever since you sang for us at Summer Bridge at UArts. I love your adventures and everything about your songs. If you could play a venue at Philly, where would you play? Because I would totally come and see you.
hi angel!!! what a rad question. i would LOVE to play the TLA on south street. i know there are a lot cooler venues, but it’s the one that means the most to me because my big brother, boyfriends, and best friends have ALL played there so i would feel like my day had finally come! ah! if i do… you must be there :) xo
So first off, I love, love, love your music. Secondly, I know you are recording your EP currently. Which EEEEK so exciting. Congratulations. Does that mean there is a possibility of a tour in the future? Sometime? I would LOVE to see you live.
EEEEK is right!!! :) so excited. EP + touring + you + me! yes!! stay tuned :)
Perri. I am going through the hardest thing in my life right now. I want to be as strong as you...i literally just printed out your blog post from yesterday and I am hanging it in my cube at work. You're so inspiring.
laurie! i love this + i love you. life is all about getting through stuff… nuts. well im here for you. 3,000 miles away… but totally right behind ya. xo
so may is over? whoa. i thought may just began. its summer. i’m almost twenty four. whoa. whoa. whoa. i think i should stop for a second and make note of somethings i’ve learned. i wanna be living in this life—not just existing + getting by… not just skimming the surface + making do… i wanna be in it to win it, tired + fucking proud. so… hmm.. how to do that…. well… what have i learned so far in 2010… lets start there….
*nothing that i think matters, matters, only love matters, that’s right. beg to differ. i dare you.
*anyone can quit nicotine + smoking. anyone.
*real friends want to see you succeed + make you feel like it.
*100 days without a lover will not kill you… i promise.
*if you work out everyday you can eat badly a couple times a week.
*if you focus on you, spend time on you—things will happen to you. simple.
*if the ground shakes when you kiss. pick him.
*if they fall out of your life… its for a reason, a big one… so don’t fight it.
*if you want your best friends near you? in the same apartment building as you? just make it happen.
*if you wake up in the morning + don’t immediately look at your phone or computer, your day will be better. i bet you.
*stop being so scared of everything. right. now.
*self love is the very first step to real love, so look in the mirror + kiss yourself. go.
*nothing happens when you want it to cause the universe is in charge of time. duh! get the fuck over it.
*if you like him + he likes you. kiss + date + call + love. no games! so many of you are missing out.
*you can do it. period.
*make every single dream happen+ don’t give up or give in.
*caring what other people think, do, + say will not help you. ever.
*dream so fucking big its ba. na.nas.
sigh. i feel better… what have you learned so far this year?
been attempting to learn guitar and i've got the basics down (or at least i like to pretend i do), what are some good songs to try and learn??? thanks :)
hey!!!!! how rad! well the first song i learned on guitar was “change” by blind melon. it’s just the simple A, D, C, + G chords. which were the first 4 i learned. i then just started to look up my favorites online and find the ones that weren’t that hard… like “im yours” by jason mraz… actually im still so amateur at guitar that all the covers i do on utube are really simple. good luck + dont give up! :) :)