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so, im sitting on my hotel bed in the middle of a little town outside of london having a really nice cry. im not sure why im crying. im not in pain, nothing is terrible or tragic, and i can honestly say im the happiest version of myself ive ever known… but here i am, on the night of my career’s three year anniversary, alone, crying.
a lot has happened to me in that time. most of you know my cinderella story of going from waitress to recording artist over night, and most days i don’t even think about it anymore. i just show up, work, do, live, look forward, grow and learn like everybody else… but somedays it all kind of hits me in a way that knocks the wind out of my chest, fills my heart with angst and brings me to tears. they’ve been three years filled with extreme highs i could not have ever even fathomed, and extreme lows that i never thought id crawl out of. and then a whole lot of good, bad, scary, and unique that happened inbetween. but apparently, thats just life. whatever way you look at it, turn it, and perceive it… it ebbs and flows, grows and breaks, shines and dulls on and on and on…
i think my cry tonight is out of gratitude, but i also think i miss my family and friends. i’ve been in london for a couple weeks now making, creating and recording something i look very forward to sharing with you, but im alone a lot. im in a lot of hotels, airplanes, cars, taxis, trains, offices, and studios looking out the window missing home. but the catch is, i wouldn’t want to be anywhere else, or doing anything else. i spent all my life trying to find this version of me and for the chance to do what i love, so now im here and with anything great, comes the hard bits. a night like tonight is a hard bit. i wish i could be sitting with keltie at the 101 cafe talking about love. i wish i could be with my mom + dad in ocean city eating water ice on the board walk. i wish i could be at my grandmothers kitchen table drinking tea and making her laugh. i wish i was holding my boyfriends hand. i wish i was dancing to disco music with my brother in matching adidas track suits. i wish i was playing with pistachio in my back yard. i wish i could be all those places at once… yet all those people are happy im here in london following my dream. i decided when your dream comes true you don’t have to stop following it… actually its more important that you keep going, keep dreaming it to keep it alive, and thats what im doing. i wrote 40 new songs and 15 of them are going to fit together to tell you a story i really need to tell you. im going to come to your hometowns, and sing and play them for you. i need this ache tonight. i need the desire to make my family proud. i need the gratitude for every ounce of love and support i’ve received from you and i need to mix it all together, swallow it up, and put it into my music. so for that, i couldn’t do this without you. i am grateful for you.
you know that “heart-bursty-is-this-real-life?” feeling you get sometimes? well i have it right now. i have it so bad its streaming down my face. huge little light bursts in my soul for the life i find myself living, the people in my heart, life and career who work very hard to help me and the millions of people who believe in me. its all very big, much bigger than me, so nights like tonight i feel overwhelmed.
an anniversary is an opportunity to remember what is was like, what happened, and what it’s like now. and for that, i deem these tears, tears of happiness.
three years ago i met you.
thank you for inviting me into your hearts
i’ll see you all very soon.
happy holidays, friends!
its that time of year again. that magical time. the time when everything seems okay. nothing may really be okay in your family, your heart, or in the world right now, but at christmas, chanukah, and new years, there seems to be a sense of relief, even for an instant. an emotional reprieve, a pause in the crazy. love and light overflow the dark corners of your heart. you are forced to be joyous, eat lots of food, sing songs, give gifts, mends relationships, and make wishes for a whole new year. i believe december is one of humanity’s greatest gifts. there are some people with nothing, and some people with much, but this time of year is about HOPE and LOVE. and those two things are free.
i hope with my whole heart that you can find peace and love and hope and invite it into your hearts and lives. i hope that you begin believing in yourself. i hope happiness finds you more this upcoming year than pain. i hope you learn to love others more than needing to be loved. i hope that the deepest little dream of yours comes forward and demands to be real. i hope that courage overwhelms you like an ocean. i hope that kindness comes to your lips first. i hope that forgiveness if not far from your heart. i hope that you can remember where you came from. i hope that every time you fall, you stand again. i hope that if you say “no” you mean it. i hope that if you say “yes” you mean that too. i hope that you finally tell that person how you feel. i hope that you let go of the one that hurts. i hope that you look in mirror and see how beautiful you are. i hope you realize no one is perfect. i hope you stay teachable. i hope you stay bright even when it’s dark. i hope you inspire. i hope you create. i hope you always move forward. i hope you remember the only thing that’s real is: right now. and right now, everything is okay.
tonight i will be writing my famous letter to the universe. this will be the 4th year in a row where i write down all my wishes for the upcoming year. call it “the secret” or “a dream” or “a wish” or “a letter” or “a manifestation list” or “a prayer” whatever you want to call it, i sit down on december 26th and make a list of intentions. intentions for my life, heart, mind, and career. all of it. i dream HUGE and very small. i am specific where i need to be, and general where i can be. i am humble, yet ambitious. i believe by writing this letter i am making a promise to the heavens to try, and an even bigger promise to myself to work hard. remember, nothing ever comes to the man who doesn’t work hard and NOTHING is easy, well, nothing good. so get yourself ready, if you dream it, it will come :)
dream big, never give up, and i’ll see you there.
love, light + jingle bells,
someone wonderful just told me that when a man goes to the moon he can not come right back to earth. there is a period of time between there and here where he must stop and decompress, re-acclimate, be medically tested and approved physically and mentally before he comes home.
this makes a lot of sense and has helped with my first week back on what feels like, earth. for 27 months i have been on the moon. don’t get me wrong, the moon is the coolest and most incredible place to be, but since returning, all i could do was walk in my house and collapse.
my brain is saying: “what just happened?” “did i really just play 200 shows?” “did i really just tour with one of my heros and sing with him every night?” “did i really just live with 12 people on a bus?” “did i really sign a record deal?” “did i really make an album?” “did i record a christmas ep somewhere in there too?” “did i get to see my family?” “did i really just play the hollywood bowl?” “did a little song i wrote really heal the hearts of many?” “are people choosing another song i wrote for their wedding song?” “did i really get the scariest vocal cord surgery on the planet, recover in 6 weeks and learn to sing again?” “did i really get to sing songs all over whole world?” “wasn’t i a waitress a minute ago?” “do people really believe in me?” “how do i get to do this for a living?” “did i feel anything?” “was i really there?” “did i really experience it?” “will my grandchildren ever believe me?” “is this actually all a dream?”
my brain is right to question… and it’s all okay because my heart knows the answers. what i think is happening to me is called “shock.” im pretty sure i’ve been in state of shock since 8pm on june 30th 2010. i think i have never stopped being shocked, because i don’t know how to process all the amazing i have walked into. all the epic i have swam in. all the unreal i have tasted, and all the unbelievable i am being expected to believe.
but… what do i do now? album two. i know… and then i’ll be right back up to the moon, but i have to stop and breathe. i have to try to believe. i have to feel something. i have to stop the train and ask the conductor where we are going. i have to let the magic come find me again, i can not go looking for it. i can not ask it to show up at 6pm next tuesday. it doesn’t happen that way, and it never will, and it never has for me. i look up. i open up. i breathe in. i hope. and i believe. that’s when it comes. whatever “it” is. it comes through me.
so don’t worry, that’s my plan. i just have to be okay today with not being okay today. i am uncomfortable. i forget how to make tea. i miss my bunk. i want to hide under my covers for the next 8 weeks… and i just might… i need to take care of me, whoever me is today… i need to hang out with her and find out, so i can be her for you.
cheers to the completion of the best first trip to the moon and back. cheers to the accomplishments, challenges, music, moments, tears, defeats, successes, and songs. cheers to every single human on my team, band, crew, and family. cheers to the hard work and love that surrounded me constantly. cheers to all the hearts who have connected to mine. cheers to all the people in the world who have shown up for me and my band and my music. cheers to whats ahead. cheers to genius song fairies. cheers to the music sitting in my iphone voice memos. cheers to my label and believers. cheers to my managers and heart beats. cheers to album two and everything that’s coming. cheers to my family. cheers to love. cheers to the divine blessings paving the way for me to create. cheers to creation. cheers to you.
ps. these are some of my favorite moments from space:
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